for HIM ( please read my letter )

assalamualaikum, abg...ape khabar?dah lame kite xborak since anor pun da lame xtegor abg...i'm sooo sorry..i'm just feel guilty :( i know i hv done a lot of things that makes u disappointed at me rite?? hmm thats why anor betul2 rase sebe salah sangat nk tego abg..seriously anor betul2 rindu mase kite berkwn..i had so fun together :) i wish i could stop that time.. :( u know what abg...its sooo hurt when i just can see u but i can't say anything to u..i'm feel soo guilty..i don't know what u think about me..my terrible life today..i feel shame...i want to quit..i want to quit from there...i can't see u..we are soo difference and i don't want to be that... :( i really miss u..i hope i can go without ur notice...same as first as i'm coming to nxp..today i saw u when u try to help kak ayu (i don't know her name) abg tolong angkat lot dia..that time i'm sooo shocked...i don't know what i'm feel..either happy coz i can see u or hmmm i don't know...anor rase macam time tu anor nk lari je..hehe entah la...it's soo much differences now.. i hate it...seriously..i don't want we end up our 'friends' like this..but i can't say anything..i don't hv any strength to do that..i want to stop all this...i swear..and...i really2 miss u... :(